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Creative Transformation

July 10, 20253 min read

Creative Transformation – a Process, Not a Destination

Transformation isn’t a quick fix or a project you can complete and check off. It’s a living, breathing process – often messy, uncomfortable, nonlinear. But at its core, it's deeply meaningful and full of possibility.

Creative transformation is not just about letting go of the old or becoming something new. It’s about growing into yourself more fully, layer by layer – guided by presence, truth, and inner rhythm.

1. Awareness – the awakening

 Every transformation begins with a moment of awareness: “Something is no longer working.

This insight may come through exhaustion, dissatisfaction, illness, emptiness – or simply a quiet knowing that life is calling for change.

Anchor: Allow yourself to see. To feel. To be honest.

Silence, journaling, breath awareness, and conversations with a trusted guide are powerful allies here.

2. Resistance – the nervous system says no

As soon as change becomes real, resistance shows up.

Even when the old feels painful, it’s familiar. And the unfamiliar, by nature, triggers fear. We might sabotage ourselves, feel anxious, blame others, or slip back into old patterns.

Anchor: Remember, resistance doesn’t mean you’re doing something wrong. It means you’re standing at the edge of something new.

Support your body with breathwork, nervous system regulation, and somatic practices to build trust.

3. Chaos & experimentation – in between identities

This stage is disorienting. The old structure has dissolved, but the new one hasn’t fully formed yet.

You may feel like: “I don’t know who I am anymore.

This is where creativity enters. Try, play, fail, explore. Form new habits, values, rhythms. Don’t rush clarity – allow it to unfold.

Anchor: Maintain grounding rituals like yoga, nature walks, or breathing.

Let go of the need to "figure it out" – and stay present with what’s unfolding.

4. Integration – embodying the new

At some point, a new sense of self begins to root. You start to feel: “This is who I am now.

The change has moved from idea to embodiment. There’s more inner alignment, better boundaries, clearer knowing.

Anchor: Stay consistent with what nourishes you. Practice self-compassion and celebrate your growth – even the quiet parts.

Let your community mirror back who you’re becoming.

The process is spiral, not linear

We don’t change once and for all. We revisit, we deepen, we spiral.

True transformation is not about speed. It’s about presence, patience, and permission.

The permission to be in-between. To rest. To ask for support.

What helps when you’re in the midst of change?

  • Your body’s wisdom – it knows even before the mind catches up

  • The breath – every conscious inhale brings you home

  • Your inner voices – IFS helps listen with compassion

  • Your life force – yes, even in chaos, your essence is alive

  • Connection – a word, a witness, a moment of being seen

Creative transformation is a return, not to who you were, but to who you really are.

If you’re in a space of change and feel alone or overwhelmed, I’m here. You don’t have to walk this path by yourself.

I’m Merle – the founder and guide of Creative Transformation (Loov Muutumine).

I’m here for those who don’t seek quick fixes or answers from the outside, but instead long to listen – to their body, emotions, and inner wisdom.

Merle Hillep

I’m Merle – the founder and guide of Creative Transformation (Loov Muutumine). I’m here for those who don’t seek quick fixes or answers from the outside, but instead long to listen – to their body, emotions, and inner wisdom.

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